Friendship

It weird everone including me i think, have said that they have lost friendships during college and maybe i have but i generally don't notice,

I think the toughest part about losinga friend must be the fact that they knew you, and like you for it they knew your fears, they knew you secerts and everything. I think it would be hard to lose something like that, Its why i think me and dan are the way we are now, we know and been with each other to long to really just drop and leave everything.

I don't think i've lost a friendship its more, i just feel the time is right to move on, you know intrest change, sense of humour change, stuff like that, an the friendship is there just forgotton in the past, it can be reignighted again like a candle but its not forever. I think its good to think about it like that. It means you still got a friend but for now you can move away branch out and maybe find new people to spend a few years of there life with. I'm think this maybe one of the man reasons why i enjoy this college life so much, changes and new chance happen constantly.

Just got to go for it. New chances are going to come. and hopefully friendships wil remain maybe not a there once peak but still strong enough to say hi and have a converstation. I'm looking forward to college next year :)

xx

Times they are a changin

A smart man once said that, I think he ment we should always be prepared for change cause we don't no when in may happen, it maybe sudden like a lose of a loved one or a pet or long like the changing of policy in goverment.

I always thought I was good with change, I adapt quickly and get use to things quickly or make it 'homely' so i could get used to it. And i still think i am good a change. It noticing the change i struggle with, obivous things like moving college or house are easy to notice, but its the smalls ones the ones that grow slowly like when your growing you don't see it in a mirror but when you compare it to your mum or your old height against a door you've changed and got tall.

Its these changes that are hard to spot, however hopefully i shall be able to adapt quickly and to make the change work. If not meh, i tried right :)

Details in the fabric - jason mraz ft james morrison
Is just feeling so right right now

I know its childish but seeing you happy annoys me

Well as I sit hugging my pillow and a cold water bottle to my chest to keep cool, listening to a bit of the classic (Led Zepplin - Stairway to Heaven) I 'm just beginto pounder of in to my mind

I wondering if I've made the best of this year, I mean I've kept,lost and made friends throughout, Friendships have strengthen and love(yes actually Love.... or what i think love feels like) I still think there is something missing, I want some icing on the cake. weather it be to start raising money to go on a gap year to help people or just doing something that is a personal challege. This year I feel as though I have stayed in my comfort zone. I've done nothing to challege myself.

I'm wondering what and why I'm really doing things now, Am I staying in education because I feel pressured by friends or is it that i feel i need to have a good life. Or is it cause I just don't no what I want to do yet. I'm taking shit from people that are general annoying me but I don't no why, I care for everyone opions but if yours are going to be harsh then please just shut the fuck up and let me enjoy my life, not bring me down to your views of the whats rights or wrong. Yer even something as simple as clothing ... cough cough...

I'm thinking what I should do about summer. I mean I got days to kill and nothing to kill it with. I think I want a job and although I do have one, I think I want one throughout the day as I think this will keep me occupied plus the more money I get now the more I can save and spend on friends and family but yer

Lots of little thought, Building up into one big Blurrhhhhh in my mind. Pssh
I guess just take life a step at a time

'If you stare into the abyss long enough, the abyss starts to stare back at you' Mark Twain