You know in the army advert for where it says that it is a state of mind.
I feel that i have that state of mind (YAY ME) but i think somewhere i've gone past the stage of healthy. when i'm angry i think that i could cause alot of damage. I feel that if i attack someone i would just keep going. I feel that i wouldn't be able to stop unless someone pulled me off.
The thing is that what i think is that if i kill which i feel i can. I'm not sure how i would react. I'm not sure if the anger that is in me would die away. Or if it would feed on the death and want more. I may just be talking shit. But this is what i am scared of. I am going in the army. I Know i am. I just don't no how dangerous it would be. To everyone.
Help please.
this angry shouldn't be here.
I need to get it out.
I don't no how
help please
Monday 20 July 2009
Sick and Tired
I am sick and tired of people expecting me to go and call on them.
Why is it all ways me?
Is it cause everyone thinks that i need to see people or friends, well your wrong it's cause i want to see, There is a difference. So if i was you i would feel privaleged to be called on. It means i want to see you and be with you. Like friends should do.
But as i was sitting in a park on the bench watching the birds like a sometimes do. I struck me that no one every returns the favor. No every comes not on me or any people for that matter unless i'm out first.
No i first thought that it was sad that you guys need me to press your doorbell and escort you out the house. I'm not your owner, i shouldn't have to hold you by the hand and drag you out the door to go for a walk. I think it is sad
Then i realized that maybe you just take me for advantage. The fact that your all like, o reilable phil will come and call on me and then i won't be bored. Well guess what FUCK YOU.
I am not doing it anymore. I will no longer go round and call on you, and take you for a walk like a stupid dog. If you want to go for a walk. Then Go!!! Learn house to step outside the house with an arm for you to hold.
But this doesn't mean i won't come out, if you want to see me just come and call on me. Return the favor. After that i don't mind if you want to go call on people. I will call on them willingly. After a while i will start to call on you again. but i won't all the time. I would hope that you will sometimes call on me
For those of you who think that i won't be able to do that. I need to see people. Fuck you again
I can mange by myself. I will be going on walks, bike rides. by myself. I will enjoy my own company. it will be fine
and if you can't be asked to call on me. Well thank you, you are great people (sarcastic)
Actaully the really thing that i'm going to say is okay i hope you enjoy your very lonely life and while your social skills decrease. I will still be waiting for a simple ring on my doorbell.
Please don't take me calling on you for granted.
Hope to see you by My door soon
your sick and tired friend
phil
Why is it all ways me?
Is it cause everyone thinks that i need to see people or friends, well your wrong it's cause i want to see, There is a difference. So if i was you i would feel privaleged to be called on. It means i want to see you and be with you. Like friends should do.
But as i was sitting in a park on the bench watching the birds like a sometimes do. I struck me that no one every returns the favor. No every comes not on me or any people for that matter unless i'm out first.
No i first thought that it was sad that you guys need me to press your doorbell and escort you out the house. I'm not your owner, i shouldn't have to hold you by the hand and drag you out the door to go for a walk. I think it is sad
Then i realized that maybe you just take me for advantage. The fact that your all like, o reilable phil will come and call on me and then i won't be bored. Well guess what FUCK YOU.
I am not doing it anymore. I will no longer go round and call on you, and take you for a walk like a stupid dog. If you want to go for a walk. Then Go!!! Learn house to step outside the house with an arm for you to hold.
But this doesn't mean i won't come out, if you want to see me just come and call on me. Return the favor. After that i don't mind if you want to go call on people. I will call on them willingly. After a while i will start to call on you again. but i won't all the time. I would hope that you will sometimes call on me
For those of you who think that i won't be able to do that. I need to see people. Fuck you again
I can mange by myself. I will be going on walks, bike rides. by myself. I will enjoy my own company. it will be fine
and if you can't be asked to call on me. Well thank you, you are great people (sarcastic)
Actaully the really thing that i'm going to say is okay i hope you enjoy your very lonely life and while your social skills decrease. I will still be waiting for a simple ring on my doorbell.
Please don't take me calling on you for granted.
Hope to see you by My door soon
your sick and tired friend
phil
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