Well as I sit hugging my pillow and a cold water bottle to my chest to keep cool, listening to a bit of the classic (Led Zepplin - Stairway to Heaven) I 'm just beginto pounder of in to my mind

I wondering if I've made the best of this year, I mean I've kept,lost and made friends throughout, Friendships have strengthen and love(yes actually Love.... or what i think love feels like) I still think there is something missing, I want some icing on the cake. weather it be to start raising money to go on a gap year to help people or just doing something that is a personal challege. This year I feel as though I have stayed in my comfort zone. I've done nothing to challege myself.

I'm wondering what and why I'm really doing things now, Am I staying in education because I feel pressured by friends or is it that i feel i need to have a good life. Or is it cause I just don't no what I want to do yet. I'm taking shit from people that are general annoying me but I don't no why, I care for everyone opions but if yours are going to be harsh then please just shut the fuck up and let me enjoy my life, not bring me down to your views of the whats rights or wrong. Yer even something as simple as clothing ... cough cough...

I'm thinking what I should do about summer. I mean I got days to kill and nothing to kill it with. I think I want a job and although I do have one, I think I want one throughout the day as I think this will keep me occupied plus the more money I get now the more I can save and spend on friends and family but yer

Lots of little thought, Building up into one big Blurrhhhhh in my mind. Pssh
I guess just take life a step at a time

'If you stare into the abyss long enough, the abyss starts to stare back at you' Mark Twain